Getting Rid of the Idol...It's Time

It is sad to say this but my 8 week journey must come to and end less one 1 week shy of my original goal. I have been doing the Insanity program to help shed the baby weight and it has been kicking my butt and getting me back into shape. As you can tell by the title of this post though I came to a harsh conclusion while sitting and watching Cooper play this morning and replaying my past few days. I have had to nap when Cooper napped the past few days, have not felt like doing housework and have just been so tired since starting the hour workouts daily. I have let something take the #1 spot in my days that should not be anything but a passing thought of I'll get to that when I have time. My working out has become something I put top priority on daily and get a little miffed when I cannot get it taken care of and crossed off my list by 10 am.

For those of you that know me really well you know that I do things to the furthest degree. I don't just take something on I take that plus 5 other things. Why??? For the life of my I cannot figure it out. I always have this overwhelming feeling like I should not just be focusing on one thing even though in my mind I know I really just need to focus on staying healthy in a moderate way and taking care of my family and giving glory to God for all that he has done in my life. That's it. What else should I really be focusing on right now?

So, I am quitting the program today at 8 1/2 weeks. It has been good to me and helped me jump start my weight loss in a big way. I can now fit into and zip all my clothes from before Cooper. What I realize now is that everything has shifted and I will actually need to be smaller than before for things to fit 100% properly. LOL.... I figure it will happen when it happens. I am still 9 months out and have some time to work on things before it officially is not baby weight anymore. I am going to continue with these workouts at 4 days per week instead of 6 and go with the 30-45 minute workouts instead of the 1 hour ones. Whatever happens is what happens. I am going to stop and re prioritize and rid my life of a nasty little idol that has worked it's way in.

So many times I feel like people are just not honest enough with themselves about where their priorities are so I felt the need to be painfully honest about mine and how they need to change. Hopefully someone can relate to this and get something positive from it.

On another note Cooper is growing sooooo fast so I need to start updating the blog with picture as I still have at least one friend who will remain nameless that does not have facebook and looks at the blog for pics and updates ;) She is probably hating me right now for bringing that up again...Love ya nameless friend ;)