What were we thinking?

Continuing on our look back on some moments from the past year since we brought Cooper home here are some random thoughts. The day we left the hospital I had two thoughts. First, what were we thinking?? We have no earthly idea what we are doing. Second, I was afraid the NICU nurse was going to say what were WE thinking. They are so not ready to do this. We need to keep him for another few days. LOL...We were definitely looking like deer in headlights that morning.

The car ride home seemed to take a million years and I thought that everyone on the road was entirely too close to our car with our baby in it. Did they now know this was our first time out with him and we needed some space. Geez! We made it home successfully and the feeling set in. That feeling of we left home as two and now we are three. Where DO we begin this new chapter? What will be our new normal?

I guess I felt like when we came home that we were just supposed to hop right into a schedule and know what to do and things should commence as regular. Ha ha...little did we know we would be in a fog till Cooper was about 3 months old. Things went fast but they went slow. I feel like alot of stuff happened around us and like we were on the outside looking in. So weird.

It is so funny to look back and remember how we felt then as opposed to how we feel now. I do not remember life before Cooper really. It now seems so natural and just how it is supposed to be. My days now are not measured in time I need to spend at the office but in the number of naps we need to get in and the running around that needs to occur in between. Nothing can ever prepare you for that day you walk out of the hospital with that new little baby. I guess it is just a natural process of the learning curve. Things happen in their own time. You all adapt and adjust to the new situation. I love my life and my little family. There are no words to express how happy this little guy makes us. Each day is a new adventure and I know it goes by in the blink of an eye so I am working on staying in the moment and not wishing any stage to go by quicker or to come sooner. We need to stay in the present and enjoy our gift just as it is.