Parker's First Haircut

I guess I should preface this blog with the fact that I do not intend to make every post something that is tough or sad and about my mom. I have a separate blog I am using to blog for a year to turn into a journal to have for my boys & myself about anything and everything but some things will overlap and sometimes they will be tough so if you read this blog just bear with us. I hope to blog some pictures from our beach trip soon and Parker's first birthday is coming up in a few weeks and we have found a few houses that we are excited about. Lots of things coming up that we are determined to make positive for our family. God is good and we thank those that read for sticking with us through this difficult time ;-) XOXO

This was a tough day because Gigi always did first haircuts for the family. Back in the day she used to be a hair stylist before I came along and I guess some after I was born. I don't ever remember her doing that as a profession though. By the time I was old enough to remember she had moved on to other things. She still kept her licenses up through the years though so she could shop at the beauty supply store though and kept current. She cut our hair growing up and when grand kids came along doing the first hair cut was non negotiable. Doing the first haircut was such a fun thing for us. I remember when she did Cooper's we had to bribe him with a Popsicle or two. It was so hilarious with me holding the it to avoid getting hair on it. Cooper not really sure what to do with it and mom trying not to cut him with the scissors. Quite humorous. That was a day I will always cherish and I am so glad I will have that memory to share with Cooper.

The weekend she passed away I had told Trey several times that week I needed to get with her about doing Parker's hair and oddly enough when she passed in the first day or so that was one of the first things on my mind. I hate that I waited because it would have been so very special to me to have had her do that and have pictures but it won't do any good to dwell on it.

Parker actually has had tons of hair from the get go and his hair was out of control! I have debated now for a few weeks on where to take him and who to get to do the haircut. When I would think about it all I could do was think about how tough it would be. Today it just got the best of me. He needed a hair cut and I needed it to be over. We have a girl at Cost Cutters that does Cooper and Trey's hair and she is super nice and great with kids. She knows us but in a very casual way and she does not know what happened to mom. So, I thought I would just go there and take the big emotional factor out of the equation. Lord knows I have cried enough over the past week to last me a while. While it was so tough being in the situation I tried to make it as easy on myself as possible by doing it this way and I think it worked in my favor. I took lots of pictures and Parker did wonderfully. He played ball with Cooper, ate some hair (super gross but the more I tried to stop him the worse it was) and laughed. When it was over we went to Publix and both kiddos got a cookie ;-)

These milestones and "firsts" without mom are coming and will continue to come fast and furious but I think we just have to continue to hold firm in the Lord and lean on each other. Mom would not want to see us grieving ourselves out of a full and happy life or missing out on precious moments that should be soaked up and taken in. She would want us to go on however hard that may be some days to come to grips with. To love each other and to love on the these sweet kiddos we are trying to raise. So today with that milestone past us even though we miss her like crazy life goes on.....and I am so thankful for this sweet pea and my other sweet fella who through their innocence and unconditional love will help us all heal as time goes on.