I feel the need to get this off my chest as it has kind of been wearing me down since it happened. I apparently had an outward several moments of pure rage today that came out of no where. I know what you are thinking...this seems somewhat overly dramatic. Unfortuntely, this is not the case. This is kind of funny in a scary and inappropriate way as I read back through the events? Here is the scenario.....
I am at the gym running on my treadmill and currently at 3.92 miles when a fuse blows and all of the treadmills in a certain area stop. Obviously, these people were dumbfounded and never taught what to do in this situation. They all just kind of stood there. Duh!!!! So, I patiently (in a huffy kind of way) wait at my treadmill for about 5 minutes and when they appear to have no answer I walk over and ask how long they think it will take and they gave me an estimate of a few more minutes. In the meantime a nice woman who met me at the wrong time is instructing me to keep moving. I ignored her because what I really wanted to do was tell blondie to step off! I huff around for a few minutes and finally they come back on. A manager comes by and says thanks for being patient and here is a free water bottle. I apologize for being impatient and just not nice and immediately feel better for my poor attitude and feel like it will turn around.
*******In case you do not see this coming the attitude NEVER turns around********
So, I decide in all my wisdom to take that last mile and some change and just bust it out like you have never seen. I rock the treadmill up to 7.0 pace and am just giving it my all and hit about .70 (close to a mile but no deal). Then all of a sudden the treadmill stops dead again and I go jolting forward and am honestly lucky I did not fall or hurt myself. At this point in time I have a full on RAGE ATTACK. I almost think my eyes were red but that has not been confirmed!!! I hopped off the treadmill quicker than I even thought I could move and grabbed my stuff and said REALLY loudly that I had ENOUGH and I was OVER IT (as if anyone else there gave two poots about me)!!!! Seriously, when I say it was loud trust me ;) I huff by the desk and tell the girl standing there it happened again. She goes did you tell anyone. I said WELL I am telling YOU does that NOT count and swing the door open and mumble as I go out( no idea at this point what I am even mumbling)!!!
Then I storm to my car and screech out of the parking lot ( YES I SAID SCREECH)!!!! In the meantime I almost run down a woman who is not even looking as she crosses the road. Ughhhhh!!!!! Who does stuff like this?!?!?!?!? In no way would you have known I was a.) a sane person and b.) let alone someone who attends church and proclaims to be a christian!!
I feel better now and honestly think I just had a moment where I felt the need to avenge anything that tried to stop my run. After almost breaking my foot and rehabing it, then getting the stomach flu and being drained from that I felt that I had to take back my hobby! I guess I got a little OVERLY passionate ;) I can honestly say I think I have learned my lesson and next time that happens I will leave after the first time the fuse blows. Next time I am there which will be tomorrow I am going to apologize for my ugliness. It happened and all I can do is know that I should never act that way again and realize that I handled my anger completely wrong. Like you did not already know that from reading the story ;)
Healed by Mercy
3 days ago
6 comments:
Whoa Bri! I think that we've all been there and done that! Isn't it weird that that anger can just come out of nowhere? I would have been mad just for having the treadmill come to a complete and total stop (especially at 7)! Glad that you didn't hurt yourself.
Breezy...reading the story after you telling me last night...you are really lucky to not have hurt your self!!! We all have our weak points and I would have been upset as well. Glad everything turned out okay and you are right you can apologize today!!! I wish I could have seen you screeching out of the parking lot though ;)!!!
Enjoyed catching up with you last night!!! And can't wait till this weekend!!!
Ok...first of all...glad you didn't fall and break something. Second...don't know if I should be laughing while reading this or not...maybe totally inappropriate to do so, but I think we have all had moments like this. I do love the screeching the tires part!
Rach
Rach-
It is appropriate to laugh ;) As I read back through it last night I chuckled cause I realize what a loon I looked like and how silly it was to get all postal. I try not to take myself too seriously.
Bri
We all have those moments where we lash out in anger and wish we could go back and do it all over again. It's funny the things that we make out to be "such a big deal" that really aren't in the big picture. I do the same thing, though, far too often! Glad you didn't hurt yourself on the treadmill. :) That's just what you would've needed...another injury. :) I want to apologize for not stopping by in awhile. I accidentally deleted your name on my list when I was moving people around. I just realized it the other day. Glad to get caught up on ya'll.
I would have to say that this is a pretty funny blog...I am Glad that you Did Not Hurt yourself as well, That would have been awful!! I would have to say that I feel that way on a semi regular basis at work and would love to just scream out loud in my little cubical and go peeling out of the parking lot as you did!! You are a Wonderful Person!!! So Glad that James and I Have you guys in our lives!!! ;) We all have our Moments thank goodness for forgiveness, acceptance, and Love!!
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